first things first

by now i feel like i fell again in the spiderweb,
spinning thougths are flying around my head
i have a whirlwind of thougths, lots of images
passing, like an old movie, second by second,
square by square, i can see her, and i can see
the other ones, my friends, are they real?, have
they got the bends?(jajaja) well im thinking about
all the changes, and all the things that i dont want
to change at all; firstable, this relationship that has
became sick but at the same time it has evolved,
weird but true, i dont know if i want to forget it,
actually i think i dont want to; sometimes good things
just happens, feeling comfortable with myself is good,
but like pink floyd said, im comfortably numb;
the confusion comes when i see her yesterday, the question was:
to be loyal? or to be a complete jerk? i think that i have
to decide it fast, or this feeling and the magic around
could dissapear, yesterday i was in heaven,
in scfi heaven actually, i didn`t know where to look,
every place where i looked there were an angel, or two,
but just one of them catched my attention, and she was next to me......